sev i'm no shrink but i would assume a lot of it is from watching your old man resort to violence to solve problems. i for one find myself repeating a lot of my old man's short comings at times, it's what your used to. judging from your posts you seem to be an anomoly for your surroundings. lots of trouble around, and everything going for you. i know what it's like to balance that, and i've found that it can be a pretty big stress, maybe that has something to do with it as well. you already know that resorting to violence only ends up being a bigger pain in the ass than the pain in the ass that made you violent to begin with, so all i can tell you is get a punching bag or take it out on the weights. if i didn't have a gym to go home to every night i'd most definitely rip people's heads off for no reason as well.
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