Hi!
Of course I would like to lose fat while at the same time gaining some muscle mass but I don't know if this is possible. I am pretty clueless to be honest. Somehow this whole stuff overextends me. Bodybuilding really is complicated. You have to consider so many things and I don't get it done. I have problems with a good workout routine and also problems with eating. I run around in the gym pretty clueless.
I used to workout on and off for the past 3 years. But my gains always sucked. I would workout for a few months and gain fat and some muscles then I would become demotivated and stop working out and lose my gained muscle mass while maintaining the fat. This is why I decided that trying to gain muscles will not help me. First of all I have to lose the fat. This is why I went on a calory reduced diet a few months ago. I didn't workout during the whole time. I simply reduced my calories and ate clean and lost about 10-12 kilos. But now I have time and want to workout again and at least try to become a bit stronger and to aid the fat loss. But I don't know which workout routine would be best. I started working out last week and so far I have done a whole body workout every few days but this takes too long and at the end of the workout I am too fatigued and the muscle groups which I train last suffer from this. This is why I thought about switching to a different workout routine. Maybe a 3 day split which trains all important muscle groups. My problem is that I get caught up in various small exercises and I feel like what I do in the gym is totally planless and aimless, which is so frustrating.
I think that I am simply unable to come up with a good workout routine on my own. This whole stuff makes me feel so dumb. I don't understand how other people which are dumber than me can workout successfully but I simply don't seem able to manage these things. I really don't understand it.
I also don't know how many calories I need and what to eat. I eat the same stuff pretty much every day because I don't know how else I should do it. If I eat different stuff every day then counting calories becomes absolutely impossible.
In the morning I always eat the same.
I make a shake of oats,curd cheese,some whey protein and water.
On workout days I take 30-40gr dextrose + 20gr whey after the workout together with water.
90 minutes after the workout I usually eat pasta. 100-130gr pasta with tomatoe sauce. I also eat this on non-workout days simply because I don't know what else I should eat. I have been having this stuff (130gr pasta + tomatoe sauce) for dinner for the last months now and after all I have lost 10-12kilos in the past few months. A few months ago I was much fatter than I am now.
And in the evening I eat whatever we have. Sometimes I eat some eggs and bread or lean beef or chicken breasts. I don't really know how many calories I eat, this is a problem. I usually simply go by how hungry I am + I eat very clean. I don't eat any fast carbs expect after the workout.
And before going to bed I often make a shake of curd cheese and some protein powder because curd cheese is high in caseine.
This is what I usually eat. But I think that my fat intake isn't very high. I hardly eat anything which is high in fat. The oats have 7% fat and the other things which I eat also do not have much fat. Sometimes I eat some peanut butter just to get some fat and I also take fish oil (around 2000mg) every day.
Counting calories and developing a good diet is the hardest for me. I just don't really know how to do it. And it also becomes much harder on days where I'm not at home where I have to eat in a restaurant not even knowing how many calories I consume. This makes everything so complicated. I'm not dumb but somehow I am very bad at organizing things and this is a huge disadvantage because in order to be successful you have to organize and plan everything. Your food, your calories, your workout routine. And I totally suck at organizing things.
Here is a pic of my legs:
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All the fat is on the outer side of the leg which causes this typical female look.
There is so much fat on my legs. When I'm standing you don't even notice how much fat there is. But when I sit down you get a glimpse of it:
http://img213.imageshack.us/img213/5782/5qr1.jpg
I just have to get rid of this fat. This is my main priority. I don't feel well this way. When I don't feel well I have a hard time accepting myself and when I cannot accept myself then my self esteem also suffers.