The experience you're describing with masturbating is the same as mine. In fact, because it goes so poorly, it sometimes actually makes me feel worse due to the emotional stress it creates. I went over my labs to answer your question about SHGB and
DHT and found they had never been tested. The free
testosterone levels are in range, so I was assuming SHGB was normal. I have tried nettle to modify SHGB as an experiment and it didn't do much. I've also tried tongkat ali and it doesn't seem to do much for me either. I just wish I could be fixed and have a normal life back.
Does anyone ever get fully restored? I suppose if they do, they stop visiting this board. I've actually been discouraged reading about so many men that struggle to get themselves put back together.