Anger is scaring me.....!

[sev1512]

Im really starting not to like myself lately...
I got just about everything going for me, job, girl, money.
Im not depressed...

Its my anger...

Ive been to anger management before. I know how im supposed to act. I know im supposed to think before I do...

But I cant fucking control my temper...
Im not going into details, because I dont want to look like an asshole.
But what else can i do for help???
its not gear either, im normally more calm while on.

Its just I try so hard to stay out of trouble, when all around me is trouble...
I dont do drugs, I very rarely drink, I try not to party as much.

Is this really an effect from seeing my dad lose his mind on people my whole life?

Sorry to make you all my shrinks... but I really am getting upset, even scared lately. I would never hit my girl or anything like that.
Im just more scared of living my life like this.... or passing the trait down to my children.

Am I bi-polar? I mean im the nicest fucking guy, but if you cross me... it gets bad. I have no patience either.

Please guys what do you think?
I dont want to be a flip out anymore...
I have nothing to prove, its not ego, its a constant feeling inside of anger once someone crosses a line.

[jshrub]

Ive been dealing with the same thing recently. Im normally a nice guy but recently when i get mad its just uncontrollable, i say things i would never say and i dont want to do it any more, its costing me one relationship at the moment... i'll be following what others say, good thread....

[jshrub]

I say ive been dealing with it recently but its really been something ive dealt with my whole life, i just let people get to me sometimes and i have a temper, usually it takes a bit to get me going, but the fuse has been really short recently.

[cinnabar8521]

You need to find a happy place, like Happy Gilmore.

[crewboss]

sev i'm no shrink but i would assume a lot of it is from watching your old man resort to violence to solve problems. i for one find myself repeating a lot of my old man's short comings at times, it's what your used to. judging from your posts you seem to be an anomoly for your surroundings. lots of trouble around, and everything going for you. i know what it's like to balance that, and i've found that it can be a pretty big stress, maybe that has something to do with it as well. you already know that resorting to violence only ends up being a bigger pain in the ass than the pain in the ass that made you violent to begin with, so all i can tell you is get a punching bag or take it out on the weights. if i didn't have a gym to go home to every night i'd most definitely rip people's heads off for no reason as well.

[thick]

Some professional couseling should be your first bet. If u have the girl, job, and money going for u than dont let a chemical imbalance or some inward problem fuck up what could be a wonderful life. Good luck and take care

[Quasimoto]

Sev- I think you really need to see a good counselor man. I dont mean a counselor at the church, i mean a fucking real Psychiatric Doctor. Your issues seem deeper rooted then just people crossing the line, and fucking with your GF. I think you must be fostering feelings of inadequacy, which is why you post about how much money you have, your car , and the other things that i used to enjoy reading in your posts.

I used to see a post by Sev and go " oh cool, lets see what sev has done now " but now bro, i am concerned for your well being. You seem to have such High Highs and such low lows...That could be sign of being bi-polar or Manic Depressant.

None of this is meant to insult you, and maybe i should have PM'd it to ya, but maybe if the other bros here see things the way i see them and you hear ir from a concensus of people, my hope is that it'll help you to seek help for you.

Please do what you think is right, and take care of yourself.

[ramboj70]

Originally Posted by thick

Some professional couseling should be your first bet. If u have the girl, job, and money going for u than dont let a chemical imbalance or some inward problem fuck up what could be a wonderful life. Good luck and take care

I dont have that problem, I can control myself, but when I get into a fucking car, I have no idea what happens, I go nuts I yell out thte window I through carrotts out the window at other cars I sometimes drive on the median because the asswhole in front of me cant drive. I slam my hands on the steering wheel punching the dash and the radio, If you were to record me driving you would probably shit a heart attack. I have no idea what happens to me when I get in the car, but as soon as I step out, I am great like nothing ever happened, I plan on getting some help for that. maybe its the music I listen to, that hard acid rock will do it to you every time. I wish you luck bro.

[sev1512]

Quasi, I really appreciate your post. I take no offense what so ever, and your right... my posts and just about everything latelty for me has changed. Much less happy.
VERY high highs, VERY low lows, just like you said. I think it may be bi-polar.

I have seen a professional shrink... three to be exact. first one was too much of a dweeb for me to feel comfortable telling him my life story.

second, was a good help, but when I didnt get any better after about 4 months I stopped going. third, going well but she thinks I have depressions so she wanted me on zoloft. I used it for a long time, made no difference.

There are way more deep rooted things going on here.

I dont know where you get that I brag about money and stuff, I hate people like that so I hope I didnt come off like that ever.
My point was just that things are going great for me, so I have nothing to be angry with, but yet, I have so much anger.

Now those were just shrinks, I have also been to anger managment. 10 week course two times a week. Tried to teach you breathing techniques, and bullshit like that. I think it made me more angry.

Im glad everyone can see this thread because maybe it will help other people.

Jshrub, thick, ramboj.... anger is part of our instincts, we need to figure out why these instincts come out more than others. for some of us its the car, and traffic. Some of us its money problems, or fighting with the wife.

Good luck everyone... Im just getting really sick and tired of getting over stressed for stupid situations.

Originally Posted by Quasimoto

Sev- I think you really need to see a good counselor man. I dont mean a counselor at the church, i mean a fucking real Psychiatric Doctor. Your issues seem deeper rooted then just people crossing the line, and fucking with your GF. I think you must be fostering feelings of inadequacy, which is why you post about how much money you have, your car , and the other things that i used to enjoy reading in your posts.

I used to see a post by Sev and go " oh cool, lets see what sev has done now " but now bro, i am concerned for your well being. You seem to have such High Highs and such low lows...That could be sign of being bi-polar or Manic Depressant.

None of this is meant to insult you, and maybe i should have PM'd it to ya, but maybe if the other bros here see things the way i see them and you hear ir from a concensus of people, my hope is that it'll help you to seek help for you.

Please do what you think is right, and take care of yourself.

[Turbo1]

Don't know what to say Sev. I'm very quick tempered too especially when I drink. Not good at all, thats why i dont drink hardly at all anymore. I think you really should try a professional counseler again. Maybe you can find one better suited for you. I have a friend thats bi-polar..or so he says he is but I'm not around him much to notice it. I just know that when i met him he was a complete ass-hole but litghtened up as our friendship progressed. Dont try fixing this with Rec drugs or anything like that. You sound like a stand up bro who's stuck in the wrong area. Cherrish what you have and next time you get really pissed off at the TV cause you only turned it up 2 notches not FUCKING 4!!! ARRRGHHH think of your girl and your family and your job. I hope you get this figured out bro!! Take care

Turbo

[Grizzly]

"I have also been to anger managment. 10 week course two times a week. Tried to teach you breathing techniques, and bullshit like that. I think it made me more angry. "

LOL Yeah, that goofy shit does make you pissed off, doesn't it? Since when has yelling, screaming and hitting people who deserve it become a poor way to manage anger? What, we're all supposed to suck it up and pretend we're not mad. Kiss my freshly shaven nutsack!

[thick]

hell just do what grizz does and get paid to fight people. That should take some aggression out