Holy shit...Ronin...Im in the same boat!
I had been drinking huge amounts and only was able to have 'fun' when I was trashed. If I wasnt, I was just focused on getting trashed so I could have fun. I split with my ex' almost a year ago. I was drinking a shit load I was depressed over her to the point of madness!.
After much thought and 'realized determination' I stopped drinking so much, not all together but a fraction of what I did. (I would go thru over 20 beers a day easy)
I focused on training...partyly cause the bitchs that wanted me were just icky! LOL
Once that happened for a few weeks, BAM, my dick said "HELLO" and my game is back. I am much more relaxed at any given time. I dont have to have a beer in one hand and chuggin' one with the other. (I blame that on college LOL)
Now I have an almost perfect honey (getting better by the day) that is just as crazy about me. Im feeling like I did when I was 20!
I still drink but in much better moderation.
Since, Ive reduced the drink, (and got back into the lifestyle) Ive got Yummies saying 'HI' all over the place! From 17-47! But one in particular is especially yummy! With her I have no desire to drink what so ever! When I do have more than a couple drinks its like a step back, like Im retarding my senses and feelings....
Fuck Im 27 and I feel like a kid again...
Sphinx.
*Now when it comes to
test...Give my some
Cyp or En' and a couple bottles of suspesion or
prop to fill in the empty spots! LOL*