Just trying to get this off my chest

[agpando]

So I don't know how many of you exactly have issues about size but I know I have a complex about not being big enough. Like I'm having this issue that has been stressing me out and making me pretty depressed at the same time. When I moved back to the town I am in now I was a solid 195 and now I don't even know if I'm around 180 anymore. I got real sick during the winter and had some issues and wasn't able to work out as and eat like I should have been. I ran my first cycle last year and I got up to 210lbs which was awesome for me. Now when the summer started I was working out regularly and eating very well and people were commenting on how good I was looking and that i look a lot more solid than I did during the school year. Well I've been having a hard time with work and eating again and my funds are almost non existent so buying food is pretty rough. I've been stressed, depressed and tired all the time and pissed because I haven't been able to lift regularly anymore. I lifted once this week even though last week I lifted everyday. I know when school starts back up things will be good and I'll be able to eat and lift like I usually do but its these last three weeks that are killing me more than anything. I feel that I'm constantly shrinking and it really sucks. I used to be one of the biggest guys in my group of friends and now sometimes I feel like I'm just another skinny kid. I'm really kind of looking for some temporary relief until I'm able to start getting back into my regular routine. Can anybody help me out?

[prodigy06]

Sounds like me, I'm worse off then you though..... About 6 months ago I was 275 and fricken huge. Long story short I got injured, ran out of money and got a job that blows so I can't eat right all the time. I'm like 240 now. I still can't train normally due to 2 different injuries. I don't even go to a gym cause I'm so low on cash. I ran out of test and had to come off with NO PCT for 6 weeks. I'm only now getting back on. Bascially all I do is deadlift and squat. My chest is torn, my wrist is fucked up..... just be happy you're not injured.

[dennis]

Ag..I have known you on a personal level now for a good while..relax bro..stay off the scale for awhile.Do what you can do and prioritize.It is also hard to eat right when married with kids..the wife freaks when I pay 47.00 for BSN true Mass and 250.00 for groceries each week.Your size will come back quick bro,trust me.I was down to 129 lbs 4-5 years ago,sick as hell and on Inteferon/chemo..I looked at some of my pictures from back then today.I never quit,I just pressed on and did the best I could with what I had..you should see the make shift gym I used for 4 years.Your school is high priority right now,your body building comes second or third.If you cannot aford to eat enough shop smart as you can..you know peanut butter,ramen noodles,eggs etc..try and lift 4 times per week for now but never overtrain.You are a winner and will bounce back quick..we can talk next week if you like....remember..STAY OFF THE SCALE..that is not important right now.

[Massive690]

we all have issues. thats why we bust ass so much in the gym. just keep it in perspective bro. dont stress out. get back in the gym, and stay off the scale and out of the mirror for a month or two.

[oscarpalamino]

Originally Posted by dennis

Ag..I have known you on a personal level now for a good while..relax bro..stay off the scale for awhile.Do what you can do and prioritize.It is also hard to eat right when married with kids..the wife freaks when I pay 47.00 for BSN true Mass and 250.00 for groceries each week.Your size will come back quick bro,trust me.I was down to 129 lbs 4-5 years ago,sick as hell and on Inteferon/chemo..I looked at some of my pictures from back then today.I never quit,I just pressed on and did the best I could with what I had..you should see the make shift gym I used for 4 years.Your school is high priority right now,your body building comes second or third.If you cannot aford to eat enough shop smart as you can..you know peanut butter,ramen noodles,eggs etc..try and lift 4 times per week for now but never overtrain.You are a winner and will bounce back quick..we can talk next week if you like....remember..STAY OFF THE SCALE..that is not important right now.

Great Advice from Dennis. Couple of things I would add to the shopping list.

Canned Tuna 1.00/can
Whey Protein .40/serving
Wheat Bread cheap
Quaker Oats .10/serving <-------that's a steal, you can barely buy a piece of gum for 10 cents.
Brown Rice Also very cheap.

[thick]

u r in a vicious cycle and depressed. you dont want to lift which makes u look bad and looking bad makes you not want to do anything even more


If you cant get to a gym then let me suggest you commit to some cardio. If you are gonna lose weight at least lose good weight and get ripped. You will feel great about yourself.


I am also guessing right now that when you do eat it is mostly junkfood etc.


Get on the cardio. Make yourself do it. You have to start now and get in better shape for the start of school. hit school on a positive note. best of luck