depression

[bulkman123]

should i be this depressed on test and hgh? or is it because im always alone?

[HeadDoc]

Originally Posted by bulkman123

should i be this depressed on test and hgh? or is it because im always alone?

actually testosterone has positive effects on depression. are you using other drugs and are your assays for testosterone and estrodial in appropriate ranges? do you suffer more mood problems than depression? what treatment are you pursuing for depression? how long have you been depressed?

[bulkman123]

Originally Posted by HeadDoc

actually testosterone has positive effects on depression. are you using other drugs and are your assays for testosterone and estrodial in appropriate ranges? do you suffer more mood problems than depression? what treatment are you pursuing for depression? how long have you been depressed?

i have been depressed for about 10 years and recently diagnosed bipolar. i see a psychologist, and i love her truly, she is beyond a dream. i take lamictal, klonopin, and perphenazine. i am trying to change many things about myself. i notice my depression comes on hard when i think about work or oddly enough, when i take a day of rest from lifting weights. i do not drink alcohol, i do not use drugs. i am straight edge to say the least. i like it that way. oddly enough i enjoy misery to some extent but i wish i could just find inner peace and happiness. women are afraid of me because i look like a hardass and i dont like that too much. im pretty attractive and successful but i come on real strong. what the fuck does that have to do with your question? anyways, i need balance in my life. i go from one extreme to the other. last week a truck driver cut me off and i stopped traffic, climbed in his window and told him i was gonna rip his throat out. than later that night i watched the breakup with vince vaughn and jennifer aniston and cried like a little girl. than i got extremely pissed and paced my house for awhile. ya see Doc, im all over the charts emotionally. i do not feel good on roids, but i did feel GREAT on a test booster i used to take that i bought from GNC, and believe it or not, i gained considerable size from it. Its called Androbolix. anyways Doc, thanks for the post.

[biceps72]

just a suggestion--- have you tried a lesser dose of steroids?

It seems to me that steroids, although helpful in some cases of depressiom, are not helping you now. I am not a n MD (but do have a Ph.d.); You need to find some balance in your life before you can achieve happiness. Keep consulting a professional and lessen your steroid load. I would not be taking roids given the medication list you have.

Peace Bro.

[JanSz]

Originally Posted by bulkman123

i have been depressed for about 10 years and recently diagnosed bipolar. i see a psychologist, and i love her truly, she is beyond a dream. i take lamictal, klonopin, and perphenazine. i am trying to change many things about myself. i notice my depression comes on hard when i think about work or oddly enough, when i take a day of rest from lifting weights. i do not drink alcohol, i do not use drugs. i am straight edge to say the least. i like it that way. oddly enough i enjoy misery to some extent but i wish i could just find inner peace and happiness. women are afraid of me because i look like a hardass and i dont like that too much. im pretty attractive and successful but i come on real strong. what the fuck does that have to do with your question? anyways, i need balance in my life. i go from one extreme to the other. last week a truck driver cut me off and i stopped traffic, climbed in his window and told him i was gonna rip his throat out. than later that night i watched the breakup with vince vaughn and jennifer aniston and cried like a little girl. than i got extremely pissed and paced my house for awhile. ya see Doc, im all over the charts emotionally. i do not feel good on roids, but i did feel GREAT on a test booster i used to take that i bought from GNC, and believe it or not, i gained considerable size from it. Its called Androbolix. anyways Doc, thanks for the post.

I have no suggestion but I envy you writting skills.

Short, very descriptive, lots of flavor.
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[HeadDoc]

letting the licensed health care providers know the full picture of what is being taken would be a good start. Including a consult to those providers a medical doctor with knowledge of HRT and AAS would vasty improve the outcome. Allot is known about bipolar disorder. All things considered this is a good era to have bipolar disorder. Many resources are available. Several brothers who have bipolar disorder have been around this forum. Some drop in occasionally and a few just stay in touch by PM or email.

[BBC3]

Originally Posted by bulkman123

i have been depressed for about 10 years and recently diagnosed bipolar. i see a psychologist, and i love her truly, she is beyond a dream. i take lamictal, klonopin, and perphenazine. i am trying to change many things about myself. i notice my depression comes on hard when i think about work or oddly enough, when i take a day of rest from lifting weights. i do not drink alcohol, i do not use drugs. i am straight edge to say the least. i like it that way. oddly enough i enjoy misery to some extent but i wish i could just find inner peace and happiness. women are afraid of me because i look like a hardass and i dont like that too much. im pretty attractive and successful but i come on real strong. what the fuck does that have to do with your question? anyways, i need balance in my life. i go from one extreme to the other. last week a truck driver cut me off and i stopped traffic, climbed in his window and told him i was gonna rip his throat out. than later that night i watched the breakup with vince vaughn and jennifer aniston and cried like a little girl. than i got extremely pissed and paced my house for awhile. ya see Doc, im all over the charts emotionally. i do not feel good on roids, but i did feel GREAT on a test booster i used to take that i bought from GNC, and believe it or not, i gained considerable size from it. Its called Androbolix. anyways Doc, thanks for the post.

My forst cycle, I thought I was not taking enough because I was going crazy the same as you. I too have problems with depression. It is a great secret in this world that depression is a major problem with the greatest men in history. Ceterus Parabus = "all things equal". The world is a zero sum game and so is life. If you burn bright one day, you will have to pay for that with the same low on another. It may come the day after. Or you may burn bright for 20 years and then suffer for 20 years. You need to leave ALL benozopienes alone. THey are the devil, i assure you. AND, it turned out that I was not low at all, I was crazy and did not realize I was megadosing. The hormonal lottery with be different every day. You need to back off or you will loose your mind. Another thing. Get your doc to give you paxil. It will make you sleepy at first, but then , it has got to be the greatest pick up drug on the plant. One of the label uses is Bi-polar disorder. Which I am pretty sure I am... Dont listen to the crap about the problems comming off of it. ANyone can do it in two weeks flat. IN fact, it kinda fun going low on that stuff. Kinda trippy. Once you identify what is happening, you will see no big deal. For bipolar, this is the best light drug on the planet. A real picker upper. Just get past the first month. WIth these drugs you will have to go through a stage of "Letting go". Just go with it and it will change you life to the better, much better.