Question for an M.D.?

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Not sure if this one will merit, or evn if already said....

(1) I am wondering what to expect in a post steroid use scenerio, both physically as well as mentally. No one really wants to summarize or capture this. Is it really that bad?

(2) What is the purpose of PCT if it does not actually "restart" your system. I see the drugs like HCG and clomid. They fake a signal to enlarge testicles, and block estrogen by various means, and at a time where natural testosterone may be low, or not, or what. HOW DOES THIS HELP NORMALIZE MY SYSTEM?? Isn't it just a matter of time regardless?? If i had no natural testosterone, why would my natural estrogen levels cause me side effects anyway, that is, if they are where they were before I started?? How do the current pct drugs actually get the natural system going?

(3) People are talking about being "permanently shut down" because of improper, or lack of PCT? IS this true. Is PCT necessary to avoid this terrible condition? Or would they have been permanently shut down anyway?? Is there a certain threshold of imbalance that your system can handle before it is damaged?

** My stats are 36 years old, 235lbs, avg bloodwork. My testosterone was tested at about 305 prior to AAS usage. I dont know any other detail or breakdown on that figure. I began using testosterone cypionate about 6 months ago. I was using to both improve my lifestyle, and train for a particular event. I wound up averaging 250mg/wk for the entire time, through today. I am going to see what it is like on the other side again, and if there is anything to "being shutdown".

P.S. This attempt to back off was spurred by a conversation i had the other day. Normally, i would say that all these people talking this shut down stuff, are bullshit liars, and misinformation plants. However, i was talking with someone i did not know the other day who mentioned they had a brother that did too much roids and now cant get it up?!?!?!?. So let me see what there could be to this....